I don’t share everything i want to — i cannot.

Most days i don’t have the courage; most days i’m struggling just to do the minimum.

So i don’t raise my hand; i don’t unmute my microphone on Zoom and share that my wife died a year ago. Part of me wants to, but the part of me that controls my actions stops me.

Like many people, i sabotage my own efforts to move forward; and i guess that i always have. If you know me, you will recognize the truth of this.

So i continue, slowly, as best i can.