When you find something good in life, don’t let it go! Enjoy it while it lasts! Life has a limited number of such things.

We are all going to die — every single one of us. There’s no escape; but it’s not a bad thing. Living forever would be such a curse! Living forever would be Hell! So be thankful you’ll have to let go of existence at some point; that’s just a basic part of life.

Since i helped Sandi, my wife, get through her last year of life, my perspective on death has changed a little. I was never afraid to die; it was always living that i had some trouble with. But i am perhaps more comfortable with both living and dying than i was before.

Sandi was already comfortable with death, too. That was an early bond we had. We’d each had an unsuccessful suicide attempt. She got over hers; me, not so much.

I wrote a book about it, twenty years ago; but that wasn’t enough. I’m still dealing with it — why else would i still be writing about it? Thank you for your patience.

I’ve written before about maybe not having any more romantic relationships. I don’t know. I don’t think so. Or not for a long time. I’m not sure i could handle it, or that i’d even want to handle it; maybe i just don’t have the heart to love anymore.

I’m also probably not going to get to ever write professionally. This is likely as good as it gets. Writing is just something to do to pass the time … like reading … like life.